Okay, so hands up, I admit it - I missed a month. The six month mark of Leo's death and birth took us by some surprise, we naively didn't think it would affect us that much (Ha! What silly people we are!) and so, I missed it and by the time I realised, I figured … Continue reading 5for5 : Month Five & Six
A Creative Outlet for Grief
I can't actually believe that we've got it this far, its still very early days, but last week we launched our little shop 'Mini Robin Designs' and I am loving having a creative purpose to all the thoughts running through my head, and I hope that others like what we are creating.
What if You Miscarry your Rainbow?
I guess I should start by saying that if the title of this blog looks at all distressing to you, or you aren't in the best frame of minds or places right now - you might want to step away from the triggers. This isn't the cheeriest of posts. On Monday, we miscarried. I was 6 … Continue reading What if You Miscarry your Rainbow?
Grief as a Mental Health Issue?
It's Mental Health Awareness Week and it got me thinking this morning. When I've commented about our recovery being a mental health issue, a few people have commented that it isn't a mental health issue, it's grief, it's different - as if trying to make me feel better because labelling grief as a mental health … Continue reading Grief as a Mental Health Issue?
Kid, You’ll Move Mountains
Leo's life will not read: Leo Phoenix, stillborn, full stop. Normally there's a story after the word born. They were born and became something, they did something - even if it wasn't of note, or worthy, or even legal - it was still something. Leo will not be followed by a full stop. Talking about … Continue reading Kid, You’ll Move Mountains
I Miss All Of The Leo’s
The pain is heavy. It is physical. It is sitting on my chest. The weight of forever taking my breath. I don't just miss my baby boy. This isn't just a pregnancy loss. I miss all of the Leo's. I miss the inconsistent sleeper, the newborn crier, the fussy eater. I miss the cheeky smiler, … Continue reading I Miss All Of The Leo’s
Learning Lessons
This morning, I watched an interview of a woman who was one of Jimmy Saville's victims, on Victoria Derbyshire. It was in the lead up to a BBC documentary on tonight. I have put it on to record, it will no doubt be harrowing. The woman in the interview was inspiring and so much of … Continue reading Learning Lessons
You are More than Normal
We are in a subdued state of blur. Almost unfeeling. Somewhat settled. Somewhat unnerved. Somewhat lost again. Derailed. Back at the beginning. Also, at some small sense of peace.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings
Our moto has always been : Whatever Tomorrow Brings and it is so much more poignant with every shitty tomorrow that comes our way.
Lost. An Analogy.
An image came in my head last night when I was attempting to get to sleep as an anaology for life now, life after stilllbirth, after Leo. Lost. I would explain it as using an hundred year old map of your home town to find the brand new coffee shop. With a compass pointing south. … Continue reading Lost. An Analogy.
The Legacy of Leo 