We have been away on a last minute Daily Mail special (we googled the codes, don’t panic, I refuse to buy the DM!), at a Haven in Hastings in East Sussex for Eli’s birthday. And it’s been wonderful to be somewhere different, make memories and celebrate the little dude who has given us so much … Continue reading …and just like that, he is one.
Parenting after Loss anxiety, particularly at night, is a topic that has come up a few times lately in messages or on #BabyLossHour and I realised I don’t really talk about my anxiety now, since Eli arrived. The intensity of anxiety in pregnancy has absolutely left, but it's always there as a background beat to … Continue reading Anxiety through the Night when Parenting After Loss
And just like that, in what feels like the blink of an eye, The Wife is back to work after 23 weeks - two days shy of six months - at home with me and Eli. We knew before we were even pregnant with him that should we get past the 24 week mark again, … Continue reading Our Best Parenting Decision So Far – Sharing Parental Leave
I would describe grief as a living, breathing entity. Quite like the embers of a fire. They can sit, perfectly safe, but present for ages. Then a slow breeze can hit them, provide the much needed oxygen, and slowly the flames will reignite. Give it the right conditions, and you have a fire once again. … Continue reading Rainbows aren’t the Cure | Saying Hello to Grief Again
As the culmination of my Bump Day Blogs, this post first appeared on over on Pregnancy After Loss Support, here. For quite some time, we had the 19th June scheduled for Eli's induction. It would place us at exactly 37 weeks, and felt like a safe time to plan it. Leo had died at 37 … Continue reading Eli River’s Birth Story
Today is Eli's due date. 40 weeks. This is not a date that we ever held as being significant in terms of his arrival, as we always knew our pregnancy would never last that long. But it does feel poignant, so we are going out to celebrate this would-be end to our pregnancy. These past … Continue reading Dear Eli, today is your due date…
I really want to discuss our feeding journey for Eli, but I feel like it's a topic that can sometimes becomes far too political, so I've really debated how to approach it. Ultimately however, we started this blog to share the realities of our journey after Leo's death, and it's become a place (almost a … Continue reading To Breast or Not to Breast