Leo Phoenix was born sleeping on 17.01.16, at 2:33am, weighing 6lb 4oz, at 37 weeks and 4 days. We discovered that he had passed away just a few days earlier. We had spent the previous three years on a journey of three IUI cycles and two IVF cycles to give us Leo. Life will never quite be the same again, Leo has given us love and pride and we are now on a journey of writing his story without him.
He will never be forgotten, for he has made us both mothers – something we have longed for, for many years. Whilst we may still be on this journey, he will forever be a part of it. From his days with us, to his funeral, and in our lives, we will forever honour him and try our best to make positive memories of our son.
The support we have received from the hospital, during labour and afterwards, and from the organisations supporting them in the early days will never be forgotten – the names of the midwives caring for us, and for Leo, will stay with us forever. We are forever thankful for this, and will dedicate our futures to ensuring it can continue.
Since our lives took a turn, I have blogged to try and make sense of the constant running thoughts in my head. I have delved into a online ‘club’ of pregnancy loss and stillbirth, and have been supported by the words of others – hopefully this blog not only helps us as a form of therapy, but can shed a small bit of light on someone else’s dark – or just help to raise awareness of grief, bereavement and stillbirth.
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Whatever brings you across this blog, you are not alone.
I am so very sorry for your devastating loss of your precious boy, Leo. It’s so heartbreaking and unfair. The early days are so difficult. Be gentle with yourself in these days, and throughout this long grief process. I’m sending you so much love and light and strength to get you through these darkest of days ahead. You’re not alone. Feel free to reach out any time. xoxo, Christine
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Thank you Christine, for your message and support. It really is appreciated.
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So sorry for the loss of your precious Leo. I am a mummy of a little boy born sleeping 18 months ago. Writing helps me too. Take care Leo’s mummies. xx
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Thank you for you comment and for reaching out. Writing is helpful, to calm the mind. Take care too xx
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I am so sorry for the loss of your son, Leo. There is nothing at all in the world like having to bury a child, and the grief is so complicated. I am glad you decided to write; it was also my outlet in the early days when our daughter, Haven, died. I don’t know what I would have done without the ability to get words out during that time.
Sending strength and peace your way.
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I am sorry to read of the loss of your son, Leo. There is nothing more devastating, writing has helped, and is helping me. Keep writing and sharing, and know you aren’t alone.
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I am so incredibly sorry for your loss of precious Leo ((hugs)) Keeping you and your wife in my thoughts.
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I am so sorry for the loss of you son, Leo. Nothing will ever be quite right again. I hope the writing will help, it helped me as a release when my daughter Daisy was stillborn on 17th January 2012. Your Leo was born on my Daisy’s birthday, when she should have been turning 4.
Keep writing, keep sharing, and keep loving. Leo is not forgotten and you are not alone.
Best
Katy
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Thank you Katy for comment and for sharing Daisy with me – what a gorgeous name. So bittersweet to know that they share the same birthday. So much love to you and your family. – Jess xxx
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Thank you so much for the candy stick…. I was very touched by your act and I had a niece who lived only a few days …. much love to you and we will raise a glass to Leo and say thank you on Christmas Day xxx
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Ahh wow thank you so much for letting me know you found it. I’m so sorry your family understand ❤️
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