Leo Phoenix was born sleeping on 17.01.16, at 2:33am, weighing 6lb 4oz, at 37 weeks and 4 days. We discovered that he had passed away just a few days earlier. We had spent the previous three years on a journey of three IUI cycles and two IVF cycles to give us Leo. Life will never quite be the same again, Leo has given us love and pride and we are now on a journey of writing his story without him.
He will never be forgotten, for he has made us both mothers – something we have longed for, for many years. Whilst we may still be on this journey, he will forever be a part of it. From his days with us, to his funeral, and in our lives, we will forever honour him and try our best to make positive memories of our son.
The support we have received from the hospital, during labour and afterwards, and from the organisations supporting them in the early days will never be forgotten – the names of the midwives caring for us, and for Leo, will stay with us forever. We are forever thankful for this, and will dedicate our futures to ensuring it can continue.
Since our lives took a turn, I have blogged to try and make sense of the constant running thoughts in my head. I have delved into a online ‘club’ of pregnancy loss and stillbirth, and have been supported by the words of others – hopefully this blog not only helps us as a form of therapy, but can shed a small bit of light on someone else’s dark – or just help to raise awareness of grief, bereavement and stillbirth.
Whatever brings you across this blog, you are not alone.