On the Due Date of the Baby We Miscarried

Today, is our due date. The due date of the baby we miscarried in summer, of our flicker of hope, of our little Robin. I didn't actually remember until mid morning. Or at least I didn't really click that it was the 23rd until mid morning. I'd known that this date was approaching. It's a [...]

Tommy’s Awards : Mum’s Voice, a celebration of a year of Leo

The charity, Tommys, means so much to us. In the darkest days, we discovered them and their desire to fight baby loss and they gave us so much hope. Hope for a future after stillbirth, for the potential of bringing home a breathing baby, for surviving. I can't really put into words exactly what Tommy's [...]

The Rambling Thoughts of Fertility Treamtent After Loss

During our last cycle, I wrote. Not publically, but I still needed to write. I needed to dump all the thoughts, anxieties and what ifs somewhere. Whilst we are still contemplating our moves forward on our journey of bringing home a living baby, I thought I'd share the unedited inner workings of my mind - [...]

Why Leo Dying is Not the Same as Trying To Conceive

Its quite a natural thing in human nature to compare an experience that someone has, to one of your own. It makes you feel included, similar, able to offer support and advice. Some do it more often than others, some just sit and listen and wish not to compare. Some do have similar experiences, that are [...]

To Medicate or Not to Medicate, That Is the Question.

This afternoon, we went back to the fertility clinic to debrief our most recent cycle. Part of that involves discussing the plan going forward. Or at least what the options are. For some reason, I don't really know what the best plan forward is. Its probably got something to do with the fact that we [...]

Why Five?

Almost four years ago, we bought an Olympic bib set in a discount sale opposite the Olympic stadium. September 2012. About the same time that we started looking into fertility treatment. A year later, that bib set then haunted me as we went on to "fail" our first, then second, then third cycle of IUI. [...]

Educating Fertility 

Okay, I made the absolute mistake of first, watching Good Morning Britain and second, Victoria Derbyshire. GMB is just Daily Mail sensationalism on TV. No wonder Piers Morgan is on there. Derbyshire is much more balanced, but only if they have intelligent people on. So, a fertility doctor (Geeta Nargund) was discussing fertility education in [...]