And... September. Neither of us are really loving that we are in September for so many reasons. As winter approaches, we approach our two biggest challenges of the next few months - Christmas, and Leo's first birthday. Every degree cooler, and every day closer, just fills with a little bit more dread. With the sun … Continue reading 5for5 Challenge : Month Seven
Validating Motherhood with a Sweater
Today, I got happy post. Happy post in the form of Tiba & Marl Selfish Mother sweater. I have wanted one for SO long. The Tiba & Marl Selfish Mother jumper specifically raises money for Tommys, and anything and anyone that supports Tommy's, is a friend in my book. Last weekend, through some posts on … Continue reading Validating Motherhood with a Sweater
The Rambling Thoughts of Fertility Treamtent After Loss
During our last cycle, I wrote. Not publically, but I still needed to write. I needed to dump all the thoughts, anxieties and what ifs somewhere. Whilst we are still contemplating our moves forward on our journey of bringing home a living baby, I thought I'd share the unedited inner workings of my mind - … Continue reading The Rambling Thoughts of Fertility Treamtent After Loss
Why Leo Dying is Not the Same as Trying To Conceive
Its quite a natural thing in human nature to compare an experience that someone has, to one of your own. It makes you feel included, similar, able to offer support and advice. Some do it more often than others, some just sit and listen and wish not to compare. Some do have similar experiences, that are … Continue reading Why Leo Dying is Not the Same as Trying To Conceive
Running Out of Steam
I feel like I am running out of steam. Or perhaps, I have already ran out of steam. In the early days, after the initial rawness dulled, I was proactive in my grief. I tackled it head on. I read. Exercised. Got a routine going. Researched. Found out what helped, and what didn't. But now, … Continue reading Running Out of Steam
5for5 : Month Five & Six
Okay, so hands up, I admit it - I missed a month. The six month mark of Leo's death and birth took us by some surprise, we naively didn't think it would affect us that much (Ha! What silly people we are!) and so, I missed it and by the time I realised, I figured … Continue reading 5for5 : Month Five & Six
#FistPumpAWarrior
I went for a walk this morning (hatching Pokemon Eggs) and got thinking. We are all WARRIORS. Some bloody scary warriors in the face of life's shits. Everyone is fighting some kind of battle. Big ones. Small ones. Multicolour ones. Most of us don't even know what that battle is. Some people don't like to … Continue reading #FistPumpAWarrior
A Creative Outlet for Grief
I can't actually believe that we've got it this far, its still very early days, but last week we launched our little shop 'Mini Robin Designs' and I am loving having a creative purpose to all the thoughts running through my head, and I hope that others like what we are creating.
I Resent it All
I wrote this post a few nights ago, at the end of an anxious day (for no reason, other than I hadn't had one for a while..) whilst falling to a bit of dark hole (a very dark hole). I ended up having what I refer to as a panic attack, when I get so … Continue reading I Resent it All
To Medicate or Not to Medicate, That Is the Question.
This afternoon, we went back to the fertility clinic to debrief our most recent cycle. Part of that involves discussing the plan going forward. Or at least what the options are. For some reason, I don't really know what the best plan forward is. Its probably got something to do with the fact that we … Continue reading To Medicate or Not to Medicate, That Is the Question.
The Legacy of Leo 