I would summarise this week as meh. Just nothing. I expected a full on outpouring after the post mortem appointment. Flashbacks and derailment. But it hasn't really happened. It's more like I'm indifferent. I'd been waiting for it for what feels like forever. And now I've had it, theres just nothing there. I am sitting on neutral. … Continue reading Sitting in Neutral
Dear The Bump I could quite easily condense this letter into two short, rather predictable words, but it wouldn't be nearly as worthwhile for space on my blog. You see, I waited until I first heard my much sought for baby's heartbeat before downloading your app. It was one of my first tentative steps to … Continue reading An Open Letter to The Bump App
We are in a subdued state of blur. Almost unfeeling. Somewhat settled. Somewhat unnerved. Somewhat lost again. Derailed. Back at the beginning. Also, at some small sense of peace.
Our moto has always been : Whatever Tomorrow Brings and it is so much more poignant with every shitty tomorrow that comes our way.
Do employers have a duty of care following stillbirth? Since Leo died, a lot of people have rightly asked us "how have work been about it all?" The pure notion that people feel that this is a worthwhile question, suggests to me that they also expect to not always get the answer of: "Amazing, they have been … Continue reading Do Employers have a Duty of Care following Stillbirth?
The more the world moves on, and we don't, you begin to feel even more isolated and disconnected from everything, and everyone, around you.
After chasing three times, we have a post mortem appointment. The 8-10 weeks "on the safe side" estimate has ended up being an 11 week appointment, but I'll overlook that. I've been focusing on just getting the appointment so much, that now we have it, it's time to get my head around actually walking back … Continue reading Finally! An Appointment.
We've started dancing in the kitchen again. Listening to the radio. Making dinner. Busting out some embarrassing moves. Letting go. I guess from outsider looking in, there are two responses to such frivalous carefree joyful behaviour just two short months since Leo died. 1. How can you possibly feel enjoyment? If I was you, I'd … Continue reading Dancing in the Kitchen
Last month, I donated and pledged to the 5for5 Challenge. If you haven't seen what this challenge is, have a look here at the story of Seamus and how his family are marking his fifth birthday. Here, to hold myself accountable, is an update on my five pledges on two month since the birth of … Continue reading 5fo5 : Month One
wo months gone, but two whole months with you to love, cherish and share with the world - and that, my little Leo, just makes me smile.