Recently, I've noticed that I'm struggling to process the events surrounding Leo's death, his pregnancy and his birth. Since his second birthday, there are things that I can't seem to look past, and the peace that I had gained about it all, has unravelled. I've noticed how its eating into my own self-esteem and confidence, … Continue reading What Are You Doing Here?
The Internet gives us all a voice. A much louder, more heard voice than what we would have without it. Social media is a fantastic way to spread a message - whatever it is - and connect with people who either are spreading a similar message, or who just blow your mind that they bother … Continue reading #StillATaboo – When You Go On Live TV…
Well, the past few weeks have been a bit of a blur and have been filled with the love (and deep missing) of so many babies. A small idea (http://wp.me/p7boXM-vD£) that I thought would be good to motivate us to meet our crazy aim of waking 310 miles throughout October (between me and The Wife) … Continue reading Miles In Memory : Update
And... September. Neither of us are really loving that we are in September for so many reasons. As winter approaches, we approach our two biggest challenges of the next few months - Christmas, and Leo's first birthday. Every degree cooler, and every day closer, just fills with a little bit more dread. With the sun … Continue reading 5for5 Challenge : Month Seven
I can't actually believe that we've got it this far, its still very early days, but last week we launched our little shop 'Mini Robin Designs' and I am loving having a creative purpose to all the thoughts running through my head, and I hope that others like what we are creating.
I cannot believe another month has gone. Today, it's four months since we met Leo. Each month feels longer and longer, but when I do these updates, it really does help to remind me what we have achieved, as sometimes it feels like we are making no progress at all. To find out what it … Continue reading 5for5 : Month Three
Leo's life will not read: Leo Phoenix, stillborn, full stop. Normally there's a story after the word born. They were born and became something, they did something - even if it wasn't of note, or worthy, or even legal - it was still something. Leo will not be followed by a full stop. Talking about … Continue reading Kid, You’ll Move Mountains
I think my brain is starting to feel settled with the results from Leo's post mortem. Or at least, from there review of his pregnancy. We had another appointment yesterday with a different doctor, and we gained a lot more detail and information - and quite a different explanation of things. The doctor we saw … Continue reading Leo, You Were Simply Too Polite
I would summarise this week as meh. Just nothing. I expected a full on outpouring after the post mortem appointment. Flashbacks and derailment. But it hasn't really happened. It's more like I'm indifferent. I'd been waiting for it for what feels like forever. And now I've had it, theres just nothing there. I am sitting on neutral. … Continue reading Sitting in Neutral
Dear The Bump I could quite easily condense this letter into two short, rather predictable words, but it wouldn't be nearly as worthwhile for space on my blog. You see, I waited until I first heard my much sought for baby's heartbeat before downloading your app. It was one of my first tentative steps to … Continue reading An Open Letter to The Bump App