This morning, I watched an interview of a woman who was one of Jimmy Saville's victims, on Victoria Derbyshire. It was in the lead up to a BBC documentary on tonight. I have put it on to record, it will no doubt be harrowing. The woman in the interview was inspiring and so much of … Continue reading Learning Lessons
Sitting in Neutral
I would summarise this week as meh. Just nothing. I expected a full on outpouring after the post mortem appointment. Flashbacks and derailment. But it hasn't really happened. It's more like I'm indifferent. I'd been waiting for it for what feels like forever. And now I've had it, theres just nothing there. I am sitting on neutral. … Continue reading Sitting in Neutral
An Open Letter to The Bump App
Dear The Bump I could quite easily condense this letter into two short, rather predictable words, but it wouldn't be nearly as worthwhile for space on my blog. You see, I waited until I first heard my much sought for baby's heartbeat before downloading your app. It was one of my first tentative steps to … Continue reading An Open Letter to The Bump App
You are More than Normal
We are in a subdued state of blur. Almost unfeeling. Somewhat settled. Somewhat unnerved. Somewhat lost again. Derailed. Back at the beginning. Also, at some small sense of peace.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings
Our moto has always been : Whatever Tomorrow Brings and it is so much more poignant with every shitty tomorrow that comes our way.
Do Employers have a Duty of Care following Stillbirth?
Do employers have a duty of care following stillbirth? Since Leo died, a lot of people have rightly asked us "how have work been about it all?" The pure notion that people feel that this is a worthwhile question, suggests to me that they also expect to not always get the answer of: "Amazing, they have been … Continue reading Do Employers have a Duty of Care following Stillbirth?
Lost. An Analogy.
An image came in my head last night when I was attempting to get to sleep as an anaology for life now, life after stilllbirth, after Leo. Lost. I would explain it as using an hundred year old map of your home town to find the brand new coffee shop. With a compass pointing south. … Continue reading Lost. An Analogy.
Navigating Friendships whilst Navigating Grief
The more the world moves on, and we don't, you begin to feel even more isolated and disconnected from everything, and everyone, around you.
Finally! An Appointment.
After chasing three times, we have a post mortem appointment. The 8-10 weeks "on the safe side" estimate has ended up being an 11 week appointment, but I'll overlook that. I've been focusing on just getting the appointment so much, that now we have it, it's time to get my head around actually walking back … Continue reading Finally! An Appointment.
Dancing in the Kitchen
We've started dancing in the kitchen again. Listening to the radio. Making dinner. Busting out some embarrassing moves. Letting go. I guess from outsider looking in, there are two responses to such frivalous carefree joyful behaviour just two short months since Leo died. 1. How can you possibly feel enjoyment? If I was you, I'd … Continue reading Dancing in the Kitchen
The Legacy of Leo 