The more the world moves on, and we don't, you begin to feel even more isolated and disconnected from everything, and everyone, around you.
Finally! An Appointment.
After chasing three times, we have a post mortem appointment. The 8-10 weeks "on the safe side" estimate has ended up being an 11 week appointment, but I'll overlook that. I've been focusing on just getting the appointment so much, that now we have it, it's time to get my head around actually walking back … Continue reading Finally! An Appointment.
5fo5 : Month One
Last month, I donated and pledged to the 5for5 Challenge. If you haven't seen what this challenge is, have a look here at the story of Seamus and how his family are marking his fifth birthday. Here, to hold myself accountable, is an update on my five pledges on two month since the birth of … Continue reading 5fo5 : Month One
Two Months Gone, Two Months Here
wo months gone, but two whole months with you to love, cherish and share with the world - and that, my little Leo, just makes me smile.
Unsolicited Advice
So, it appears we are at the beginning of two stages: firstly, discovering which friends really make the cut, and secondly, putting up with random people's unsolicited advice. Granted, the second is the joy every new parent has to learn to deal with. You smile, go oh really, that's interesting, I'll look into that, and … Continue reading Unsolicited Advice
Mr. Grief
Sometimes, you get taken right back to square one. Or maybe square three. Today started okay, I had every intention to do a few errands, go for a walk, get outside. And then, out of nowhere, one too many errands is just too much. These errands were only at home ones too. Hardly difficult. I've … Continue reading Mr. Grief
Rainbows?
Now, after Leo died we said that we would try again, eventually. We also said when we were pregnant that we would at least give our two frozen embryos a shot - we couldn't leave them.
Aching Arms
I wrote the below the other day - when I was really feeling the physical effects of this shitty grief journey. It really comes out of the blue, with no warning or reason. Just like it bubbles up and hits you. This morning I've felt similar. Like I'm still connected to Leo physically - I … Continue reading Aching Arms
Motivation
I am now a fond believer that if you feel it, you should run with it. It breeds a sense of success, empowerment, worth, excitement. Life.
Our Three Days With Leo
If you were to ask someone who hasn't gone through a death of their child, which three days they would pick to remember, if that was all they could keep, I wonder what they would choose?
The Legacy of Leo 