Well, the past few weeks have been a bit of a blur and have been filled with the love (and deep missing) of so many babies. A small idea (http://wp.me/p7boXM-vD£) that I thought would be good to motivate us to meet our crazy aim of waking 310 miles throughout October (between me and The Wife) … Continue reading Miles In Memory : Update
Challenging Fear
A few months ago, our anger and anxiety was at its peak. It was becoming crippling. We had slowly started to get a grip on general things, but social events were still such a challenge, small irritations were large irritations and it was all just running away with itself. It feels like, for now, we … Continue reading Challenging Fear
Miles in Memory
For October, Baby Loss Awareness Month, we are taking part in Aching Arms UK #MilesInMemory. We have a team involved (feel free to join) but me and The Wife have decided to try and clock up 310 miles, which statistically is a mile for every baby stillborn through the month of October. This is going … Continue reading Miles in Memory
5for5 Challenge : Month Seven
And... September. Neither of us are really loving that we are in September for so many reasons. As winter approaches, we approach our two biggest challenges of the next few months - Christmas, and Leo's first birthday. Every degree cooler, and every day closer, just fills with a little bit more dread. With the sun … Continue reading 5for5 Challenge : Month Seven
Validating Motherhood with a Sweater
Today, I got happy post. Happy post in the form of Tiba & Marl Selfish Mother sweater. I have wanted one for SO long. The Tiba & Marl Selfish Mother jumper specifically raises money for Tommys, and anything and anyone that supports Tommy's, is a friend in my book. Last weekend, through some posts on … Continue reading Validating Motherhood with a Sweater
The Rambling Thoughts of Fertility Treamtent After Loss
During our last cycle, I wrote. Not publically, but I still needed to write. I needed to dump all the thoughts, anxieties and what ifs somewhere. Whilst we are still contemplating our moves forward on our journey of bringing home a living baby, I thought I'd share the unedited inner workings of my mind - … Continue reading The Rambling Thoughts of Fertility Treamtent After Loss
Why Leo Dying is Not the Same as Trying To Conceive
Its quite a natural thing in human nature to compare an experience that someone has, to one of your own. It makes you feel included, similar, able to offer support and advice. Some do it more often than others, some just sit and listen and wish not to compare. Some do have similar experiences, that are … Continue reading Why Leo Dying is Not the Same as Trying To Conceive
5for5 : Month Five & Six
Okay, so hands up, I admit it - I missed a month. The six month mark of Leo's death and birth took us by some surprise, we naively didn't think it would affect us that much (Ha! What silly people we are!) and so, I missed it and by the time I realised, I figured … Continue reading 5for5 : Month Five & Six
A Creative Outlet for Grief
I can't actually believe that we've got it this far, its still very early days, but last week we launched our little shop 'Mini Robin Designs' and I am loving having a creative purpose to all the thoughts running through my head, and I hope that others like what we are creating.
I Resent it All
I wrote this post a few nights ago, at the end of an anxious day (for no reason, other than I hadn't had one for a while..) whilst falling to a bit of dark hole (a very dark hole). I ended up having what I refer to as a panic attack, when I get so … Continue reading I Resent it All
The Legacy of Leo 