One of the main things that I get messages about, is 'where do you even start with navigating pregnancy after loss?' It was by far the most challenging experience we encountered after loosing Leo - its full of every single emotion and sometimes, they all hit in one day. Its intense, and its bloody hard. … Continue reading Navigating Pregnancy After Loss | An Introduction
When Its No Longer Just Grief.
I've spoken in brief about my own mental health on my Instagram lately, and I thought it was time to bring the conversation over here. Especially when many people echo back me too whenever it is spoken about. Roughly, since Leo should have turned two in January, I've found a distinct shift in my emotions. Something has … Continue reading When Its No Longer Just Grief.
What Are You Doing Here?
Recently, I've noticed that I'm struggling to process the events surrounding Leo's death, his pregnancy and his birth. Since his second birthday, there are things that I can't seem to look past, and the peace that I had gained about it all, has unravelled. I've noticed how its eating into my own self-esteem and confidence, … Continue reading What Are You Doing Here?
#StillATaboo – When You Go On Live TV…
The Internet gives us all a voice. A much louder, more heard voice than what we would have without it. Social media is a fantastic way to spread a message - whatever it is - and connect with people who either are spreading a similar message, or who just blow your mind that they bother … Continue reading #StillATaboo – When You Go On Live TV…
Anxiety through the Night when Parenting After Loss
Parenting after Loss anxiety, particularly at night, is a topic that has come up a few times lately in messages or on #BabyLossHour and I realised I don’t really talk about my anxiety now, since Eli arrived. The intensity of anxiety in pregnancy has absolutely left, but it's always there as a background beat to … Continue reading Anxiety through the Night when Parenting After Loss
LGBT Baby Loss | I Can Carry You
My eyes were opened to the struggle that a fertility cycle could involve. I no longer naïvely thought it would only take one attempt to bring home a baby. And I now knew the devastating truth that a healthy pregnancy did not always end with a baby to keep.
On the Due Date of the Baby We Miscarried
Today, is our due date. The due date of the baby we miscarried in summer, of our flicker of hope, of our little Robin. I didn't actually remember until mid morning. Or at least I didn't really click that it was the 23rd until mid morning. I'd known that this date was approaching. It's a … Continue reading On the Due Date of the Baby We Miscarried
5 for 5 Challenge : Month Eight
It feels like this month, or October at least, has been quite a big month with lots happening for Baby Loss Awareness. We have had an up and down few weeks, for one reason or another, and whilst I feel that some respite from it all would be amazing - I'm not sure that you … Continue reading 5 for 5 Challenge : Month Eight
Capture Your Grief : Day 1 – 10
I have been taking part in Carly Marie Dudley's Project, Capture Your Grief. It is something I discovered when I first dipped my toe in to the online baby loss community, and knew it would be something I'd want to take part it. I didn't expect October to come round so quickly though. I've been … Continue reading Capture Your Grief : Day 1 – 10
Grief Brain : Baby Brain’s Ugly Sister
Lately, we've talked about the notion of grief brain and having just done a quick Google, I feel pretty validated that its a genuine thing. I remember when baby brain hit when I was pregnant with Leo. I'd stare at the keyboard for ages at work, trying to work out how to spell the simplest of … Continue reading Grief Brain : Baby Brain’s Ugly Sister
The Legacy of Leo 