This is just some of the random musings in my brain whilst I'm killing time. Maybe one day I'll look into them more. If you do know of any resources or support for some of the things I've mentioned, please do share. I'd be really grateful.
The Rollercoaster is Real
You literally just never know the kind of day you are going to have, until you have had it.
Celebrations After Stillbirth
What do you want for your birthday? I don't blame anyone for asking me. It is my birthday after all. I wouldn't expect people to let it go by unnoticed. But I just can't relate to the word want anymore. I don't understand how I could want anything ever again.
Changes & Lessons
We had talked so much, at length, for hours about the kind of parents we wanted to be. We had done for years. We wanted to take the best bits of those around us, of ourselves too, and form a healthy, well rounded lifestyle for the three of us.
Music
I just got completely lost in the Jess Glynne album turned up really loud whilst out in a walk. I've heard this song so much, but the emotion in it took me a bit by surprise today.
Fraud : What Does a Mother Look Like?
've had this odd feeling when I've been out and about lately and I couldn't quite put it into words, but I think I've worked it out as fraud.
Remembrance
What made me smile is that when we go, over the years, we will get to see life thrive in the growth of the forest. Life that should be thriving in our home.
Belief
In my poem to him at his graveside, I asked him to rise above like the Phoenix that you are and look after us.
When Grief is a Brick to the Stomach
Sometimes it's like you're still just waiting, waiting for the baby to come.
Compassion
Thank you - whoever you are - for looking out for our baby boy. I feel safe having him there, with his new friends and their amazing families.
The Legacy of Leo 