I love my children and my wife with all my heart and couldn't dream of my life being any other way. I will never ever forget the children that I lost, but the journey has made me even more grateful.
I was finally feeling what Sophie was feeling. I could understand the level of emotion that was running through her body as I too was now experiencing it.
Growing up I was always sure of two things from a young age. One that I was gay, and two that I wanted to be a mum more than anything.
Today, is our due date. The due date of the baby we miscarried in summer, of our flicker of hope, of our little Robin. I didn't actually remember until mid morning. Or at least I didn't really click that it was the 23rd until mid morning. I'd known that this date was approaching. It's a … Continue reading On the Due Date of the Baby We Miscarried
It feels like this month, or October at least, has been quite a big month with lots happening for Baby Loss Awareness. We have had an up and down few weeks, for one reason or another, and whilst I feel that some respite from it all would be amazing - I'm not sure that you … Continue reading 5 for 5 Challenge : Month Eight
I have been taking part in Carly Marie Dudley's Project, Capture Your Grief. It is something I discovered when I first dipped my toe in to the online baby loss community, and knew it would be something I'd want to take part it. I didn't expect October to come round so quickly though. I've been … Continue reading Capture Your Grief : Day 1 – 10
Well, the past few weeks have been a bit of a blur and have been filled with the love (and deep missing) of so many babies. A small idea (http://wp.me/p7boXM-vD£) that I thought would be good to motivate us to meet our crazy aim of waking 310 miles throughout October (between me and The Wife) … Continue reading Miles In Memory : Update
And... September. Neither of us are really loving that we are in September for so many reasons. As winter approaches, we approach our two biggest challenges of the next few months - Christmas, and Leo's first birthday. Every degree cooler, and every day closer, just fills with a little bit more dread. With the sun … Continue reading 5for5 Challenge : Month Seven
Today, I got happy post. Happy post in the form of Tiba & Marl Selfish Mother sweater. I have wanted one for SO long. The Tiba & Marl Selfish Mother jumper specifically raises money for Tommys, and anything and anyone that supports Tommy's, is a friend in my book. Last weekend, through some posts on … Continue reading Validating Motherhood with a Sweater
During our last cycle, I wrote. Not publically, but I still needed to write. I needed to dump all the thoughts, anxieties and what ifs somewhere. Whilst we are still contemplating our moves forward on our journey of bringing home a living baby, I thought I'd share the unedited inner workings of my mind - … Continue reading The Rambling Thoughts of Fertility Treamtent After Loss