Leaving the hospital last time after lots of scans, blood tests, arms full of letters and leaflets I felt the strongest I had felt after any of the other miscarriages, because I knew I had a support network I could turn to.
I don’t remember a time where either of my parents sat me down to tell me about Jacob when I was older, but I have always known about him and what my parents went through.
This week, I attended the NHS England Better Births Three Years On Event and share Leo and Eli's story. The event saw the annual review of the 2016 Better Births paper, aimed at improving maternity services in England. Over 500 people were in attendance across maternity, obstetric, neonatal and other related services together with families … Continue reading Better Births 2019 : Safety, Trust and Care
We have been away on a last minute Daily Mail special (we googled the codes, don’t panic, I refuse to buy the DM!), at a Haven in Hastings in East Sussex for Eli’s birthday. And it’s been wonderful to be somewhere different, make memories and celebrate the little dude who has given us so much … Continue reading …and just like that, he is one.
Parenting after Loss anxiety, particularly at night, is a topic that has come up a few times lately in messages or on #BabyLossHour and I realised I don’t really talk about my anxiety now, since Eli arrived. The intensity of anxiety in pregnancy has absolutely left, but it's always there as a background beat to … Continue reading Anxiety through the Night when Parenting After Loss
We had a different appreciation for what lied ahead and so we tried, even though we were still heartbroken, to enjoy all the little moments.
As the culmination of my Bump Day Blogs, this post first appeared on over on Pregnancy After Loss Support, here. For quite some time, we had the 19th June scheduled for Eli's induction. It would place us at exactly 37 weeks, and felt like a safe time to plan it. Leo had died at 37 … Continue reading Eli River’s Birth Story
I really want to discuss our feeding journey for Eli, but I feel like it's a topic that can sometimes becomes far too political, so I've really debated how to approach it. Ultimately however, we started this blog to share the realities of our journey after Leo's death, and it's become a place (almost a … Continue reading To Breast or Not to Breast
Today, marks us being 10 weeks pregnant. A milestone I didn't really place much weight on until we got here. It hadn't been one of our mini-goals, or even crossed my mind leading up to it. Yet now, at 10 weeks - double figures - it seems somewhat poignant, significant. The power of another digit … Continue reading “But, they are going to look after you better this time, aren’t they?”
"One for sorrow, Two for joy, Three for a girl, Four for a boy, Five for silver, Six for gold, Seven for a secret never to be told" A few weeks ago, we started noticing Magpies. Sometimes one, often two, occasionally three, never four. They kept landing in front of the car, or appearing on … Continue reading One for Sorrow, Two for Joy