A world full of love Leo, for you. If only you stayed.
A world full of love Leo, for you. If only you stayed.
For us, having a stillbirth in what I can only describe as "stillbirth awareness month" in the UK media is a mixture of good and bad.
How do you actually wake up one morning and bury your child, and in the same day, leave him to rest and carry on walking?
So, instincts prevailed. Just do as your mind and body tell you. For what else is there to do?
From the moment we got to delivery suite we were able to "own" this experience and made the decision, subconsciously, that if this was how this had to go down, we'd make it what we wanted it to be.
It's like the due date passing has 'closed' my period of thinking that I should still be pregnant, and would be, if only he hadn't died.
For me, it really is a case of 'I have no idea what is right in this situation, so how would anyone else' therefore, there really can be no wrong thing to say.
Since the day we found out that Leo had died, I have not been able to find the words to adequately describe the level of care we received from the teams at our local hospital.
I think it's important to remember what this time is like, to be able to look back and go "we did okay" and "we got through it".
Your story may be short Leo, but it's your story, and we will continue to write it for you. We are so very proud of you and your mummies will always love you, Leo Phoenix.