I wrote this post a few nights ago, at the end of an anxious day (for no reason, other than I hadn't had one for a while..) whilst falling to a bit of dark hole (a very dark hole). I ended up having what I refer to as a panic attack, when I get so … Continue reading I Resent it All
This afternoon, we went back to the fertility clinic to debrief our most recent cycle. Part of that involves discussing the plan going forward. Or at least what the options are. For some reason, I don't really know what the best plan forward is. Its probably got something to do with the fact that we … Continue reading To Medicate or Not to Medicate, That Is the Question.
The term "loss mum" is absolutely a phrase I never knew existed. There is so, so much we have learnt. The biggest being that stillbirth happens. To the point that it's ten times more common than SIDS. That healthy babies die, and making it to full terms gives you zero guarantees. That it's the biggest taboo. Yet, … Continue reading Five Unexpected Things I’ve Learnt as a Loss Mum
We are at the end of a really shit week. The shock and pain of this recent loss hasn't been felt to our core, to each and every fibre of our bodies, like how we felt the loss of Leo. That alien feeling stayed with us for weeks, months even. Now, we just feel stuck, … Continue reading Restarting Life After Loss
I guess I should start by saying that if the title of this blog looks at all distressing to you, or you aren't in the best frame of minds or places right now - you might want to step away from the triggers. This isn't the cheeriest of posts. On Monday, we miscarried. I was 6 … Continue reading What if You Miscarry your Rainbow?