This week, I attended the NHS England Better Births Three Years On Event and share Leo and Eli's story. The event saw the annual review of the 2016 Better Births paper, aimed at improving maternity services in England. Over 500 people were in attendance across maternity, obstetric, neonatal and other related services together with families … Continue reading Better Births 2019 : Safety, Trust and Care
This blog post is part of a series of blog posts about navigating pregnancy after loss - you can read the introduction, and follow links to the other posts in this series here. Depending on the circumstances of your loss, some aspects of your medical care may be different. Our experience was a pregnancy after … Continue reading Getting the Best out of Your Medical Care during Pregnancy After Loss
One of the main things that I get messages about, is 'where do you even start with navigating pregnancy after loss?' It was by far the most challenging experience we encountered after loosing Leo - its full of every single emotion and sometimes, they all hit in one day. Its intense, and its bloody hard. … Continue reading Navigating Pregnancy After Loss | An Introduction
"One for sorrow, Two for joy, Three for a girl, Four for a boy, Five for silver, Six for gold, Seven for a secret never to be told" A few weeks ago, we started noticing Magpies. Sometimes one, often two, occasionally three, never four. They kept landing in front of the car, or appearing on … Continue reading One for Sorrow, Two for Joy
Its quite a natural thing in human nature to compare an experience that someone has, to one of your own. It makes you feel included, similar, able to offer support and advice. Some do it more often than others, some just sit and listen and wish not to compare. Some do have similar experiences, that are … Continue reading Why Leo Dying is Not the Same as Trying To Conceive
Other people's success is just a reminder that someone else is getting the life that you want. That you are striving for. Longing for. Crying yourself to sleep for.
It's like the due date passing has 'closed' my period of thinking that I should still be pregnant, and would be, if only he hadn't died.